TO BECOME AN ORIGINAL
Han Marie Stiekema Sermes
Q. You have talked a lot about becoming A
New (Wo)Man. Some people might be interested in how that will work for them. Please,
elaborate on the details.
A. Everybody, without exception
"is a child of the Mother". Realizing this, you are already reborn. It means,
that you made a step from the periphery toward the Center; from isolation toward
Wholeness. I call all these our people "Originals".
Q. If the Mother loves everybody, why is it,
that not everybody knows Her?
A. Deep within, everybody knows
his or her descent from the Mother. This (intuitive) insight had been suppressed for many
thousands of years, though. Hence, people lost contact with it.
Q. Is that the explanation for the fact, that
some have found the Mother, while others have not?
A. This is a very old
discussion in religious circles. How can you reconcile "God's love and justice"
with the fact, that "He" apparently let Himself know to some, while hiding
Himself from others?
Q. Also leading to a (false) sense of being
God's chosen people.
A. Absolutely. The answer to
this is both simple and possibly shocking: it is by chance. First of all, the Mother
doesn't chose. If She would, She wouldn't be All-Embracing. She is simply There, being
available to all. It depends on all kinds of secondary factors - comparable to the
probability law of quantum physics - if you come to know Her or not.
Q. Like what?
A. For instance. Giving up your
individualism is not always easy. Hence, a learning process often preceding a new step.
When I got awakened, I thought, that I immediately would be able to "spreading the
message". It took some 25 more years though, that I very reluctantly
accepted the idea. So, you simply don't know "what is good for you" e.g. it
depends "on the Mother's wisdom" to determine, when you are ready for a next
step. Very often "suffering" proves to be a necessary pre-requisite. Only if
your alienation becomes too painful, you start longing for Wholeness.
Q. Does that relate to the often
incomprehensible saying of Teresa of Avila, while being in a period of intense suffering:
"Please, Lord give me more of it?"
A. That's right. She simply had
discovered, that Oneness with the Ultimate depends on the intensity of longing. (of which
she thought, she had not enough....) This in turn often depending on the intensity of
Q. Why is it, that while the Mother is
Omni-Present, She remains invisible?
A. The Essence of the Mother is
Absolute Emptiness. By emptying Herself more (which is incomprehensible), Her Light Body
is born. The "result" is, that Emptiness and Fullness are two sides of the same
coin. These two Realms are "subsequently" canceling each other out. The
consequence is, that She cannot be seen, felt or touched. However......
Q. You mean the Moments, that She does reveal
A. Yes. What is meant above, is
that She is invisible for the "common" mind. The secret behind this is, that
deep within, we are Her Light Body. So, by "remembering", we may become united
with this our Original Nature.
Q. What could possibly contribute to
"speeding up" the process?
A. Accept the pain of your
alienation, isolation, illusions, addictions, meaninglessness, confusion and frustration.
The more you allow it to enter your innermost core, the stronger your longing for
Q. Dying to the old, while becoming reborn.
Q. It sounds so simple, but how does this work
A. From the first moment, that
you relax, closing your eyes, while "stepping back" within, seeing that
"you are here", while the inner sides of your eyelids "are there",
only to discover, that sooner or later "your thoughts appear in front of you",
realizing, that there is an inner distance between you (the observer) and your thoughts -
thus you are not your thinking - then rebirth has already taken place.
Q. To very soon experiencing setbacks.
A. That's right. This condition
is still very unstable. Hence, the necessity to further developing it.
Q. Please, continue.
A. Once you free yourself from
your (unconscious) identifications, you may start to become sensitive to "the
Mother's calling". That means, that the Cosmic Movement (from the periphery toward
the Center) makes itself known to you. You begin to feel the subtlety of being
"soaked in". To consciously go with the Cosmic Flow, is what it is all about.
Q. Doesn't this require guidance of somebody,
who has preceded you on the Path?
A. Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
It depends on the stage you are in. Especially with regard to situations, in which you are
close to the next transition, a guide is often indispensable. Practices like
"initiation" or "rites of passage" could be of great help here.
Q. I recently heard about "Vision
Quests". Would that be a possibility too?
A. Traditionally, "Vision
Quests" are the way North American Indians are taking care of their initiates. They
consist of a lonely retreat in the wilderness, fasting and praying, while performing
ceremonies. The aim is twofold: confrontation with your inner demons (purification) on the
one hand, and receiving a "Vision" on the other.*
* See a.o. http://www.schooloflostborders.com/
Q. Would you recommend this practice to others?
A. Very much so. To make it
more suitable to our purposes, I have called it "Mother Quest" though. Through
it, we express our longing for meeting the Mother. The technicalities are largely the
same. The only difference is, that we focus more on invocation, inner prayer and
Q. What is happening during your stay in the
A. First of all, you prepare
yourself thoroughly. After that, you actually go on your own, leaving everything behind.
You subsequently will stay in a certain area, while fasting. There will be no
conveniences, like a tent, just a sleeping bag will do. You will spend four days and
nights in Mother Nature, alone. Being confronted with the forces from within and without.
Q. It is not difficult to imagine, that the
impact of such an initiation will be quite considerable.
A. Your deepest longing is to
"dying to the old", while becoming reborn, praying to the Mother, that Her Grace
will be bestowed on you. Since She is the Source of all, She may very well hear your
Q. After She has granted you Her gifts, what
would be the following step?
A. Vision Quest people
distinguish three steps. First of all, the "severance", which includes leaving
everything behind; then the "threshold", meaning the actual transition and then
the "incorporation", which symbolizes a new beginning. It very much corresponds
to the Mother's Principle of "dying and becoming reborn", while subsequently
fitting in into "Heaven, earth and the (new) community", once again.
She Loves You.
Heed Her call.
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